howdy campers....so one of my grands was telling me that you don't need a license to own a artic fox.....and i was like ...no i'm pretty sure you have to have a license and be trained too....which i guess is how you get the license......also i said they are wild animals...not pets....which brought the conversation around to the skunk i used to own......
      so way back before kids and a husband....i was delivering pizzas...in my vw bug....loved that car...it was my first car and it was fabulous!!!......anyway i went to this one house and walked up to the door and these 2 huge great danes came to the door....oh my gosh they were so cute.....and then a skunk waddles up between them........i was in hog heaven.......well that would probably be skunk heaven, cause it was a skunk and not a hog.....moving on.....the owner comes to the door and i am just raving about the skunk.....she says "do you want him?"......and i say "of course!!!!".......i mean who wouldn't take a skunk that you just saw from a house you were delivering pizzas to?.....right??!!.....well.....i rented a house with 2 other guys and let's just say  they  weren't as thrilled with the skunk as i was, but i kept him in my room.....in general.....ok he roamed the house......oh and i already had a guinea pig and a dog........and how many problems could a skunk really cause?
     ya know sometimes spontaneous decisions can be really interesting and exciting......i mean if you think things through too much you you probably wouldn't do some things.....of course it is good to think things through sometimes.....but maybe not too much....
         so how many problems can a skunk cause...........well it started with the skunk..tea bear....chasing the guinea pig, while the dog chased the skunk through out the house.....that was fun and chaotic.......then there was tea bear digging.....they really like to dig....alot....with long claws......in the bathroom..... on the walls.....lot of drywall repair needed.......then tea bear would do this back up hopping thing...trying to scare people off, which would tear up the carpet......thankfully he couldn't spray.......what else.......oh yeah he got out a bunch of times and would scare the neighbors because they thought it was a rabid skunk digging at their screen doors....he was just hungry.....had to get him from the dog pound a couple of times......i don't know how he would get out....he was pretty smart...............a fun thing we would do is walk around the neighborhood.....with tea bear on a cat harness leash......he basically waddled.......super adorable.....he did have a musky smell to him, like a ferret...but all in all he was fabulous.....
          i had checked about getting another skunk some years back and found out you had to have a wildlife license.......so that's how i gathered an artic fox would need more of a license to get one.....and since we don't live in the artic....maybe not.....they are cute though........
        so even though jumping in with both feet with out looking can sometimes lead to not so great consequences....sometimes you just need to be spontaneous and hopefully things will turn out pretty groovy.....or you could just be repairing alot of drywall..........i mean if you are delivering pizzas and an artic fox comes to the door and the owner says "do you want him?".......what would you say?................be groovy!
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.....ps- so i have been searching the house for this 1 photo of me and tea bear and all i can find is the book that came with the him.....so one day when i find it i'll post it for you to see how adorable he was!.....see ya
        
      

      good morning campers........well let's just dive right in.....i obviously have too many fires going to accomplish anything......i've been reading things on marketing and such, and getting very overwhelmed with all the information out there..........how do you focus on something when you have 5 thousand somethings going on???   i was reading an article about , what else, art marketing....and came across this artist...corrina thurston.......i figured i give her props for inspiring me and others....i mean she is pretty inspirational, she's got a great story too........but in 10 years, she has gone from sketching to doing alot of stuff successfully.......wow......i have been at this for over 30 years and while yes i have done alot of murals, i just feel like maybe i have too much stuff going on or trying to make go on?....does that make sense?.....i'm not comparing myself ....well maybe i am....i mean all artists are different, all art is subjective........but i want to make this a business, ya know actually make a living at it, but ........there are alot of but's here.......i guess i'm making excuses for not achieving ...what....well i'm not sure.....
           so that really gets to the point of why i'm where i am.......not really anywhere.....well i am ....i'm here...so that's not anywhere.....but....wow that's my word today.....
       so my art day goes.....cause i've got other stuff i do, but i'll focus on the art part at the moment.......check email....interact with others on facebook....i seem to be a hermit and don't interact much on facebook or at all and then i'm asking people to "check out my latest post or artwork"....kinda rude and insensitive to others thinking i'm so special people want to read all about my latest exploits.......so i try to interact on facebook.......i have to set a timer cause i get sucked in and the next thing i know its 2 hours later.......but there is alot of funny stuff out there........then try to post on instagram, cause if you post 1 time a day people start following you...is what people say, and you know what people say....."no, what do people say?".......anyway....oh my, i'm rhyming now.....you can tell when things are going downhill when you rhyme at will.....ok that was a forced rhyme...... .......do you feel the pressure already and i've only gotten into 45 min of my art day.....and once again you can't just post on instagram and not interact there either......so i set the timer again....cause there is alot of good stuff out there............then different days of the week i do different things at this point....write blog, draw pics for blog, post blog, work on computer to edit pics, rework on computer cause now i have to make all pics 1200 pixels or less...arrrgghh and i forgot how to resize again...i think i lost the post-it.....apply to mural calls....which means i have to find pics to send, write statements of why i want to apply to the calls, archive pics, photograph artwork, download artwork.............then.......that's supposed to take about an hour or so...now i actually draw, paint, sketch, whatever....for about an hour......ha ha ha.........i am a mess..........my biorhythms must be in the dumpster today.........i only really.....reverse that....i really only have 3 hours to get all that done before going back to my paying job.......and i thought i was organized....ha ha.....oh yeah and also this above doesn't happen everyday........sometimes i get part of it done.....some days i just do whatever i want...which might not be anything....it's great being my own boss.....but sometimes my boss is not that organized....and kinda lazy....at times.....
        well what to do???......hmmm.......well 1st, stop ranting about my lack of getting stuff done and 2nd,  .....get stuff done!...right?!.....i mean it's not rocket science....or is it??...... if i want to do something, i have to actually do something......sometimes i amaze myself with my brilliance........the wonders of my brain.......so i figured what better way to say "hey i'm gonna do something", than in public, or on the internet......so world....for the next ....wait a second while i go and count the days.......14 weeks and 2 days....hey that's exactly 100 days....seriously i didn't plan that...........unless my math is wrong, which it could be.....but that gets us to the end of 2020......i will....this is not a maybe or i'll try, but i will do a drawing or sketch or painting or some sort of artwork everyday!!!!.....which is 100 pieces of art.....woohoo!....... i will post them here so yall get 7 fun filled drawings every week now!!!....and post on instagram everyday, well skipping sunday, so mon -sat.........which also means i'm posting a blog every tuesday!...yes that's right folks...blog posts on tues!
           so hopefully , no change that to....... this will... get me creating art everyday........this will get me motivated , even when i don't want to be motivated.......i'm on fire....can someone say bipolar?....."bipolar"........so moving forward,  switching "but" for "will",  creating art for the next 100 days, and use all my fires to draw by.....God's got my back, and front...ha ha...........life is good!    be groovy!
        

      good morning campers....hope all is well with you and your virtual selves.....life has become very topsy turvey here........topsy turvey, that's a great word....needs to be said more...."topsy turvey" ....my spell check is having a field day at the moment....so my streamlining hasn't been going well, because, well, i am easily distracted.........who knew??....surely not me!....what?!.....it seems, well it's not that it seems, it's more like it is, that  i've been focused on everything but my painting....feeling alittle discouraged, but it's really my own fault...because, see, why be discouraged when you can be encouraged!!!......"go team go"......"you've got this"......"just one more turn".....that's what i kept hearing when i ran my first and only (at the moment) marathon......but really it was more like 100 more turns.......but it did keep me going.......my brain is easily tricked.............but back to being distracted.....  i go back and forth with, "well is this really what i want ?" (talking about painting).....and "yeah it is...i'm pretty sure"......ah ha!...there's the problem....me and my doubting mind........but then what am i doubting.....my ability?......possibly, cause i believe we all doubt ourselves at one time or another.....well not the evil older sister.....she definitely is not a doubter....she's a doer...and a "get out of my wayer, i'm on a roll"....... and a "oh i'm sorry, not, that i stepped on your prone body while i'm trying to make a sandwich".........how many times today have you said "prone?".....kind of an odd word...."well that was prone to happen" ....or " since i believe that dust actually protects the surfaces of things i was prone to get dust caterpillars"....more like dust llamas......and i wonder why the kids sneeze when they come in the house?!....hmmmmm
      i'm trying to write this before the bread rises and i have to knead the dough......11 min......no problem..........
         anyway so this doubting thing i have going on really must stop..........you see i can make a  decision and doubt if i made the right decision about what i just decided because after i make a decision then i weigh the pros and cons of the decision i could have made instead which never weigh out the same......and then l feel guilty over making that decision, but it wouldn't matter if i made the other decision because i would have done the same thing.....it's a no win -no win situation here......guilt and doubt are siblings by the way....i start doubting what decision to make and then when i make the decision along comes doubts sibling to the party and wham serious guilt over the decision......which brings me back to doubt.......i can say that i have gotten better with the guilt.....i think.....at least i don't apologize when it's raining anymore........the power i think i have is incredible........so instead of feeling guilty and doubtful, i'm trying to actually learn something from all my choices i make.....people say "weigh the pros and cons before you make a decision"....yeah i have done that too, but it still drives me right back to the doubt and guilt house.....good times.....it's probably something the evil older sister did to me years ago....probably a recording she played while i was sleeping that instilled this guilt doubt family in my brain........ ........ya know i been trying to really get God's opinion before doing stuff..... maybe i won't doubt/guilt myself so much....right.......but i keep forgetting to check in.....God does alot of those v8 slaps to the head concerning me....
          i've got a minute....be right back.....and you can be left front.....ha ha ha
       so the minute turned into a couple of days .... and a weekend at the beach.....my happy place.......and the bread turned out fantastic and delicious!...yeah!!!........ but back to my doubting guilt filled existence......it's not really that bad..... 1st,  i forget quickly what i'm feeling guilty about and 2nd ....what was i talking about?.....
   i think that's my saving grace......"what is?"...... and why i  live....."i can streamline"........ a....."butterfly".........totally........."shiny object" .......distracted........"was that the right decision?"........topsy turvey........"i believe i will now say that guilt and doubt are happiness and sunshine and every decision i make is done, right or wrong"........."maybe?"........ life.............."my new life credo-que ser ra ser ra"......."it was prone to happen".......be groovy! 
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